Stupid Fools.. Bloody Idiots!!!
Just came back from visiting Grandma at the hospital.. She don't look very good today.. She look pale.. And sound not so good.. Different from yesterday.. Grandma look rosy yesterday.. Mum said she was ok this morning.. But when we visited her just now.. Its a different thing.. Haiz.. Dad say things aren't good..

Wanted to blog this down in the morning.. But Friendster was down.. Anyway.. Need to vent my anger here.. Because I can't scold that stupid fool directly.. And I'm not in a position to say much too.. Here's the story.. Grandma was not allow to eat or drink because she's got water in her lungs.. But Grandma keep asking for water to drink.. And no one dares to give it to her.. All of us tried to explain to her why she can't drink.. Grandma was upset with us.. Saying things like.. I'm dying soon and no one gives me water that kind of things.. And so there's this STUPID FOOL!! He gave Grandma water.. when aunt told him that Doctor said Grandma can't drink.. He answered back "just two spoon only".. Why doesn't he understand that maybe that two spoon of water may lead to more complication?? And make the problem worst!! Why?? trying to act filal at this moment?? Bloody idiots!!

I don't care whether someone in the family saw this and tale tell him what I said about him.. If He confronts me I will admit I scold him STUPID FOOL and BLOODY IDIOTS here.. Because its true.. And I think he is eyeing Grandma's money.. I also need to say that I'm giving my Dad face by greeting him everytime I see him.. Not because he is who is he to me..

Whatever it is.. I just hope Grandma gets better soon..

July 04, 2006 at 10:01 AM Permalink Comments (0)
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Erm...the post is by my cousin de... ya..no more update from her since 04/07. She is always by ah ma's side, think sometime she did stay in hospital overnite bla... Btw... i dunnoe who she is scolding idiot la...haha..

Well.. ya..b4 i went for my badminton camp saw ah ma cried... she said she wan to go home... She been sick of staying in hospital le bla...

It's cold there too.... even the maid who attend her daily, said how she wish to go back haha.. it was really cold sometime....

Aiya...dunnoe y i blogging this one down also...since it had been passed... but just to blog down the progress of ah ma lor...

At 1st she was still okok..., but it became worst...and i was worrying too... but i think she is better nw le bla... from her look la... through it is still far from b4 she was admitted in la...

Hopefully she can recover as soon as possible lor.. she is still in the same bed yet....haiz...

Erm... b4 my ah gong gone.. he said he noe he is leaving liao...and requested to go home..as he dunwan to die in hospital.. and true it was.... he die days after he came home..

The world is just so strange.... b4 he left... he kept on telling us tat he is going...

Till nw i still remember him and will nv forget him as my ah gong...

This Grandparent r the one who i lived with, accompanied by, play with, taken care of ever since the birth of me till i went to primary 1 where by i shifted to Woodlands...

And thus... i had a really really very very deep memories of/with them....

Inside there was nice and beautiful, pricing were reasonable too.. and well... we play in there like small kids while taking pictures.. haha..

Ok... after IKEA, we went on to those car mart near by... but... erm...quite a long walk to there also la..

While walking, we were like woot wah woot nice, i wan.. i wish..and bla bla.. haha.. too many nice cars to see liao..

Saw Porsche too... haiz.. dunnoe when can i get my license and money to buy the cars...Hmm..ZZZzzzzzz

We when to many Car shop, Honda, Kia, Mitsubishi, went pass Subaru, Audi, Mercedes-Benz, BMW, Bently, Volkswagen and many many more la.... too shy to enter..lol

Ok.. while viewing, NO ONE CAME TO SERVE US!!!, or tok to us.......haha... maybe our looks really look too poor? or Too Young? hehe

Aiya nvm..la..we can enjoy viewing the cars Freedom-ly, hehe

Well..erm..getting tired nw... dunnoe tmr noon going to play soccer or badminton wit my usual kiadis... will blog my badminton camp stuffs tmr or soon bla...cya

Pictures are provided by chris.

This is the lyric of the song currently playing in my blog... It is named True by Ryan Cabrera...

I feel tat.. this song is really written for me..as it shown every side of me... when expressing love to my love ones...

I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I dont look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
Im attached to you
Im weak
Its true
Cuz im afraid to know the awnsers
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You dont know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
Im afraid to move
Im weak
Its true
Im just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

I know when I go ill be on my way to you
The way thats true

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

ARGH........my past few days had nt been going well... i dunnoe wat to say....

My Grandma was hospitalized... England out of World Cup.... I Dunnoe wat the world is doing.....

Nt sure when my grandma was hospitalized... i only gt to noe it on friday...

She was lookin rather ok on the 1st day i visited her... wit slightly having difficulty breathing only...

However, the second day i went to visit her... she seem worst.... can see tat her breathing was heavier...and slower...

Looking at her in this state, made me cried... i really cried... but no one noe it.. my emotions is always hidden...

I went to hid myself crying outside the rm somewhere else after she tok to me... telling me tat... i am the most elder in my family and i had to take care of my sibling and mother... and asked me to give part of my salary to my mother when i work..

While writing till here... i feel like crying too.... i dunwan to lose another grandparent....

I experienced losing my grandfather.... it was disastrous... it made me cried for days...

Well...i dun feel like looking at her anymore... the more i look, the more i feel sad...

Really wish tat she will get well soon...and it will lighten my heavy heart....

Hmm.. the 3rd day sunday... i really escaped seeing her... my mother asked me to visit her but i told her i wanted to play soccer.... and so i went to play soccer wit my buddies..

Well...lucky... god blessed.. nth worst happened on tat day....

Today the fourth day... i went to visit her.... to my content... she was looking better... but her facial colour doesn't seem as bright as before nw......

Erm... when i looked at the calendar, our chinese hungry ghost festival is just around the corner....25th of this mth.........

I really dun wish any bad to happen!!!!!!!! i noe......more ppl pass away during the ghost festival...

Hopefully those Hungry Ghost dun take my grandma away......PLS!!!!

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